……..in an era of no computers. when I was a child, all i did was to play with my cars and when I was allowed, to watch some television. i even played cars when I was 13 and 14. I was as happy as could be.
then came technology. it was a good thing but a bad thing as we have now found out in this modern era. i believed that the internet was mainly pure. yes, it had disgusting pornography and other terrible stuff but was mainly for the good.
Yes, i became good at computers, mainly because of what I learned at Birmingham university when I studied civil engineering.
after leaving, i went to work for my dad at ggc in a separate unit, the computer unit. i learned cobol and that gave me the logic that i needed to use for my the rest of my life.
but all i was, in recent times, was a researcher and used the internet to learn stuff AND that was why I spent 4 years digging to find out what the fuck was going on and why it was happening to me.
The events that I had to endure were not just one offs; they were from a well set out plan to ruin me, physically, mentally and financially. I am not going to bring up what my bastard father did to me; too fucking painful, too fucking hard
My so called family and my father’s associates (Berwin Leighton Paisner and Paicolex Trust Management AG) have achieved all of their goals.
I needed help. I cannot get help from the family for obvious reasons so I had no choice but to turn to the police.
And what have they done about it? ABSOLUTELY FUCK ALL
Two constables came around today I think to see if I was alright and to see if I had harmed myself, as last night, in a delirious state, I wrote and sent an email to the courts saying that I was hopefully going to die.
I tried to tell the constable why I think I sent that email, as I wanted to be taken from this earth, as I said I had very strong spiritual beliefs. “That’s nice”, he said in a “we have a loon here” tone.
I started explaining to the constable that the police were doing fuck all (not the words I used) about
- the sexual and physical abuse by my father, (THEY WERE FUCKING HAPPY TO GO AFTER SAVILLE AND OTHER PROMINENT PEOPLE BUT THEY WERE ALL IN THE MEDIA; I AM JUST A NOBODY (AND A MAN) SO NO ONE CARES A SHIT)
- the false sex allegations made by my daughter
- the bribery and blackmail instigated by my father (AND THE POLICE HAD THE FUCKING LETTER FROM HIM ON THEIR SCREENS)
- the two spurious allegations made by my daughter and her mother
His reply simply shocked me. He said “we don’t have time for that”
If I had been a woman, the police would have acted on all of the allegations that I made against my family and others, namely Berwin Leighton Paisner and Paicolex.
I HAVE BEEN THE FUCKING VICTIM BUT THE POLICE COULD NOT CARE A TOSS
That was evidenced by the most crass comment that I have ever heard coming out of someone’s mouth; Leverton’s comment, when he said that I had to “TAKE IT ALL ON THE CHIN“. THAT IS ON FUCKING TAPE
WHAT THE FUCK ARE THE POLICE THERE FOR?
They are not there to catch ALL criminals, just MALE criminals or should I say men and young lads who have been suspected of a crime.
Even the justice minister said that women’s prisons should be closed
So, this SEXUAL DISCRIMINATION OF MEN goes right up to the top
It is then hardly surprising that the police treat all men like absolute shit when they arrest them and that goes for WPCs too
What is a man who has been so unjustly treated by the police, (who do fuck all about allegations that he made), going to do about it?
What was I to do? Just accept that my life had been ruined for no real fucking reason at all? Or, as LEVERTON said “TAKE IT ON THE CHIN”
The answer is my blog.
I am totally in my right to accuse certain people of doing injustice to me and THAT is not harassment.
I am not a lawyer and have not studied law since the short law course when I was studying for my professional exams, 35 years ago.
I HAVE BEEN IN A BUBBLE NOW FOR FAR LONGER THAN MY TIME HERE ON THE ISLAND
How the fuck am I supposed to know that the law has become so biased against men that I am not allowed to give my opinion on my own fucking blog and it is an opinion. I have not even watched one bit of news for over two years. I only heard about this virus that I think I have, from Liesel’s Dad in an email and then, when I was feeling up to it, did some digging on the net. I used to get my news from my osteopath or the delivery drivers but even that has all gone now and has for a while now.
That is why I wanted Liesel to “take me” last night so that my life would end and be with the ones that I loved, my darling mother and my beautiful Liesel.
I can no longer endure this fucking warped society and world anymore.
I cannot take my own life; the self preservation kicks in but I am hoping that tonight, Liesel will agree to my pleadings and I will be gone.
This is the email that I sent to the courts and the arseholes who have ruined my life but not Ms Leonard; she has done nothing to hurt me
It was to be three red roses, representing me, Liesel and Verity, my true family, as was the stunning fountain at Long Barn bought to represent the three of us, 3 tiers of waterfalls. I was sad to leave it behind when I moved but I am sad no longer; I would smash the whole thing; it was 7 feet high