In a great deal of pain today

I was going to collect my meds today and got up at 6 to watch GB News breakfast and to feed my cat.

But, from the outset, the day has gone very bad and to say that my mental health is at an all time low is an understatement.

So, I started drinking at 8.30, which means no meds whatsoever; I will just have to eke them out. If I take a sip, I do not drive, period.

I am steadily and surely going out of my mind because no one, not even the media, police, justice system or whoever will fucking help me