Do you remember the endless hours I tried to sing you to sleep with my lullaby but all I got from you was “again Daddy, again”
Do you remember that I hired this for you and your friends, when you were at Farlington. Mollie nearly missed it, didn’t she? Mrs Baggs did that as a favour to me.
Then dinner at the top of Box Hill
And of course, the library that I paid for to be kept in Liesel’s memory.
Do you remember the fun we had in Disney Paris, when you regularly emptied my wallet?
Do you remember your massive collection of miniature bottles of soap and shampoo, all lined up next to that awful bed that they gave you?
Do you remember the fun we had in my bright yellow TVR on the way to your school, with you just telling me to go faster and faster?
Do you remember when we went to Fuerteventura ? You got up early to nab me a space in the shade for a little extra pocket money?
And do you remember all of those mocktails you had, complete with parrots (and I still have those)
And all the fun in the pool
Do you remember the fun we had when “you know who” buggered off to Spain with her brood and we had a great chill out week together? Plus the famous Verity road trip
Do you remember our shopping trips to Kingston in the TVR with our first stop off always being Carlucios? Stealing my mozzarella? And you always broke your budget for buying new clothes?
Do you remember how excited you were when I said we were going to go on a road trip to the Isle of Wight? We both stood side by side on the open deck, chatting away; Dad and daughter time
Do you remember that at Long Barn, you always made a “B line” for the Aga
And who taught you to ride your bike without assistance in The Warren? I videoed it on my phone and still have it on one of my computers. You were so proud of yourself. I was very proud of you too.
And the bike? Although too small for you now, I will NEVER get rid of it, unlike your dear mother who throws out all of your memories at the first opportunity.
Do you remember all of those things Munch?
I do. All of that and much more
All of the birthday parties; the plate painting, pizza making that Bella did as a favour to me and so much more. Alice in Wonderland dress too
ANY PARENT reading this would be thinking “what a very lucky girl” “why would she do that to her lovely Dad?”
All of that, all of that was paid for by me without a bean coming from your mother and I paid all of that maintenance on top
Taking you to and paying for the chiropodist for your ingrowing toe nail?
Letting you drive my TVR up the Warren
And do you remember, when sitting on the floor by the back door, you were going to tell me why you had self harmed but then didn’t?
They were the happy times except when you self harmed but I made sure that you were safe at school until I could fathom out why.
But now I know sweetheart and my heart goes out to you; you know that in your heart