It is said that if you want something to happen, it will not but if if you fight hard for what you believe in, whilst sacrificing so much in the process , it will happen.
What I am doing is to try to make Verity understand.
I know that she feels ashamed and has a burden of guilt that few could manage but she is a strong young woman.
I know damn well that even if she does form part of my life again, if I am not happy, she will not be happy.
Happy I am not, certainly on this damn rock but elsewhere, that is a different kettle of fish altogether.
The reason that I have now upped my game and am fighting so hard for what I have been due for many years is not just for Verity, it is for me also.
The only way that I can be happy is by starting afresh, yet again, but on the mainland in a new home that Verity and I can share; it will be OUR home, not just mine and she can visit as little or as much as she wants. After all, she has her own life to lead.
In order to start afresh, I need to win my battles with those who I have mentioned many times