You probably have never heard of this before and quite frankly, I hadn’t until about 4 years ago.
Dry Mouth Syndrome is caused by certain drugs and, in my case, a drug called Tegretol, which is an anti convulsive or anti epileptic drug. I have taken it for more than 20 years.
I have always had trouble in quenching my thirst and have always taken at least one pint of water to bed. I have done this every night since my stay in hospital for my brain tumour operation.
People are very judgmental about people drinking alcohol; my daughter and my father certainly are but it goes much deeper than that.There is always a reason why people drink in excess and, in my case, it is down to two factors, quenching my thirst and stress.
I never drank to excess until my Liesel became ill and it significantly ramped up when I was going through my second divorce.
I talked about being judgemental; I will give you an example. During my second divorce, I fell quite ill and called an ambulance. I was in the kitchen and had left the front door open. As soon as one of the paramedics saw a glass of wine, he stated loudly “HE HAS BEEN DRINKING“, at which point both of them lost interest and just went through the motions; they never took me to hospital.
That is what I mean about being judgmental.They saw the glass and instantly classified me as a drunk or alcoholic. Nothing could have been further from the truth because if they had bothered to sit down and talk to me, it would have quickly come out that I was going through an horrendous divorce.
Similarly, all Verity saw was my drinking. She knew that I was going through a lot of pain as I did through the second marriage, which was a disaster, as I was always being sidelined in favour of Rosanna’s so called precious boys; the tension that caused in the house and within me.
SHE SAW ME COMING
As to my father’s attitude towards me, he was very sensitive to excess drinking because his sister who did/does reside in Canada was/is an alcoholic. Pat told me about all of the tales when she was younger. As to what was behind it, Pat gave me no clue.
So, all my father saw was a bottle and that meant that I was an alcoholic, not thinking for one moment what was behind it all.
I am not talking about young people who go out on a Friday night, with the sole intention of getting legless, whereas they are “angels” for the rest of the week.
But I do not just drink excessive amounts of alcohol; in less than an hour, I can get through two pints of milk, to try and quench my thirst. It can keep me awake for so long that I have to get up dog tired, come down and open the fridge. Bizarrely, I then follow my two pints of milk with half a pint of water; that seems to do the trick.
If anyone reading this thinks that this is just an excuse for excessive drinking, Google “Tegretol Dry Mouth” and you will be amazed at what pops up.
Of course, my so called family really knows what hell I have been through, unless they have been one of those three monkeys “Hear no evil, speak no evil, see no evil“. If they do not, they just need to read my posts about my health, or rather ill health and divorces.
Although I drink excessively, I believe that I am not an alcoholic. If my life was much better, they would see me drinking much less.
THAT IS WHAT I AM FIGHTING FOR NOW
But, I have to be careful. I cannot go cold turkey on the alcohol. Whether I like it or not, my body is now reliant on alcohol and if I drop it down too quickly, over too short a period, I will get withdrawal symptoms which would cause many epileptic seizures and that would be my driving gone again, even though I don’t go anywhere at the moment. I have talked about cutting down with my GP, DR Ali many times and he has warned me to be very very careful, when or if I go down that road.
With no future ahead of me, none of that is possible. It is not a question of if or when, it just will not happen.
So, it is not just black and white, as everyone thinks and people should stop being judgemental. There is always generally a reason behind it all but society uses drinkers as scapegoats for someone to blame with all of the crap that is going on in our society.
Just think about it before you criticise someone for drinking too much and before you open your mouth.