Something has happened to my mind since the watershed period. I feel far more relaxed and I am sleeping a lot as my brain starts to recover from years of stress.
I take a lot of meds, for blood pressure, depression and for epilepsy. The last one is obviously the most important, as the epilepsy was caused by my brain tumour operation facilitating massive amounts of scar tissue in the centre of my brain.
I religiously take my meds and because I have taken them for so long, it can be a mere 5 minutes afterwards, when I have to check if I have taken them, particularly my night ones as susceptibility to fits is high when I am asleep. That is why I keep a pill box.
But when I got up this morning and went through my morning routine, I suddenly realised that I had not taken last night’s tablets. And I did not fit last night and believe me when I say that I would know.
What that tells me is that I am far more relaxed about things and that my brain is not working “nine to a dozen” whilst I try and sleep.
What that tells me is that this watershed is not a passing fancy and that what I will be doing is fine and that I am not worried about the repercussions to my daughter or father one bit. In fact, they deserve everything that they get.
So, onwards and upwards